When you start to think depending on God totally sucks. Part One.

For nearly 5 years, we have been living this crazy life where we depend on God for everything. It all started when the Creator of the universe asked us to lay down our lives to make Him known, and part of that included giving up the right to make our own money.

As kids who grew up in North America, this concept was totally foreign for lots of reasons – mainly because our society tends to encourage extreme individualism. Aside from that, it also pushes the idea that we can all have whatever we want if we just try our best, which basically removes the need for God, because if we just study hard enough, get a “successful” career, and beat the other guy… well, then we’ll make enough money to be totally content with life and buy everything we could ever need without ever having to trust anyone but ourselves.

I’m not saying that working hard is negative or anything, but if I’m totally honest, the concept that I grew up believing my whole life was definitely not conducive to the reality that we as human beings CANNOT and WILL NOT ever be able to find contentment and satisfaction unless we live a life of surrender to the One who made us. I began to learn this about 5 years ago, and I continue to learn it everyday.

As hard as it is to give up the ability to get whatever I want whenever I want it, it has given me a deep understanding that nothing in this world is going to make me happy like I think it will. But, trusting in my God and letting Him prove that He is faithful over and over again that He can give me what I need and more – this has changed me. My life has become so much more about being alive in Him and so much less about striving to obtain the things that will make me look cool, entertain me, or make me feel good. It’s not about me proving that I’m good enough to take care of myself, or smart enough to make a certain amount of money. It’s about discovering who He has created me to be as I experience His promises come to completion in my life.

It’s not always easy though. And sometimes I forget pretty easily that He has told me He will care for me. Like last week for example, when Ryan and I flew to México for a gathering of all the people who serve in YWAM México and Central America.

We gathered with people from about 60 other YWAM bases in our area of México and Central America!
We gathered with people from about 60 other YWAM bases in our area of México and Central America!

Our plane tickets were paid for months ago through a donation, but the weeks leading up to the trip were rough. We had set aside this month’s rent money, and nothing was left in our bank account. We took some nuts that my mom had sent for my birthday, along with some protein powder just in case. God had given us total peace about going and after praying together, we believed that He would provide during our 7 days in México. The morning of our flight from Costa Rica to México City, as we waited to board, I wrote a prayer in my journal: “God, I’m believing for some miraculous provision in the next few days.” Well, He did way more than that. He freaking SPOILED us.

We arrived last Friday and had arranged to spend the first two days with one of Ryan’s old high school buddies who lives in México City. What came next was definitely not what we were expecting. As soon as we got there, Ryan’s friend told us that he would be treating us during our stay with him, and that he wanted to give us “the best of the best.” Our first meal was enjoyed with him at an upscale restaurant where every other person was wearing shirts and ties. We ate tacos and gusanos de maguey (fried worms that come from the Agave plant – a Méxican delicacy), and finished with some delicious ice cream flavored by a fruit that grows neither in the States or Costa Rica. We were kind of freaking out at this point, but there was much more to come.

Worms and Quesadillas.
Who doesn’t love worms and quesadillas?

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The following day, Ryan’s friend took us out for a delicious brunch of typical Méxican sweet bread and a variety of egg dishes for each of us, gave us a tour of some awesome places in the city and then sent us off to see America vs. Pachuca (soccer for those of you who are unfamiliar with Méxican fútbol) with some friends of his aunt. The family that took us was incredibly generous and hospitable, and they, like Ryan’s buddy, also wanted to give us the best of our time in México City. We got to see the match from box seats, while eating possibly the most delicious tacos we’ve ever had. After the game, they drove us through downtown México City which is absolutely stunning, and then took us to the top of the memorial to the revolution, where we had a 360 degree view of the whole city. Once again, we were shocked at the hospitality we had been given, and overwhelmed by the way God was giving us favor.

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Professional taco maker.
Outside of Azteca, the third largest fútbol stadium in the world.
Outside of Azteca, the third largest fútbol stadium in the world.
Mexican soccer at it's finest.
Mexican soccer at it’s finest.
Exploring downtown México City after the game.
Exploring downtown México City after the game.
El monumento de la Revolución, where we got to go to the top and see the city views.
El monumento de la Revolución, where we got to go to the top and see the city views.

The next morning we flew to Mazatlán, where the conference would be taking place for the next four days. After our two amazing days in México City, we were feeling overwhelmingly grateful and wondering what God would do next. We found out as soon as we arrived to YWAM Mazatlán, where they had not only provided a room for just me and Ryan, but a newly-remodeled room with an incredible view, a full kitchen, and bathroom with hot water. We thought they had made a mistake and couldn’t believe we had gotten such a beautiful room on a YWAM base… especially since it only cost us $5 a night. All we could think was… God is really outdoing Himself this week. Yet, there were many more surprises to come.

Our ridiculously beautiful room at YWAM Mazatlán.
Our ridiculously beautiful room at YWAM Mazatlán.
Sunrise from the roof of YWAM Mazatlán on our first morning.
Sunrise from the roof of YWAM Mazatlán on our first morning.

For now, we were just soaking in what God had already done, and praising Him for not only being faithful to put food in our mouths, but for giving us a beautiful experience that we would never forget.

Even though, one day later, we would begin to doubt, He would prove Himself faithful once again.

Part Two coming soon.

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